Trusting God When Healing Doesn’t Come

Learning to trust God in chronic illness and uncertainty

Healing has always been a touchy subject for me. Everywhere I turn It seems I see videos of people being healed. And while I do believe God still heals today, I also believe that for some, healing may not come on this side of heaven.

It’s been three years since I’ve gotten sick seemingly overnight and became legally disabled. Three years may not seem like a long time to some but for me it’s felt like an eternity. There has not been one day that has gone by that I have not prayed for God’s healing hand over my life and I’m sure my parents can say the same. But still that healing has not yet come. And I have to make peace with knowing that it may never come. Or at-least not until i’m face to face with my savior in heaven.

I trust God with my whole life and that means that I must trust Him with not just the good but also the bad and the ugly. My chronic illnesses would most definitely fall into the bad and the ugly categories. But still, i’m choosing to trust Him no matter what the outcome because it’s said in His word that He works all things together for the good of those who love Him and who have been called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28).

I am also encouraged by the heroes of the Bible who have sought healing in one way or another. I’m reminded of the apostle Paul who asked God to take away a thorn in His flesh on three separate occasions (whether he was in need of healing or was chronically ill is all speculation and can only be fully known once we get to heaven) and the Lord responded with “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9). I believe His answer is the same for me and for anyone else struggling with chronic illness hoping and praying for healing who are still waiting for their miracle on this side of heaven.

Regardless of the circumstance, we can have faith and a hope in knowing that our healing has already been purchased by Jesus on the cross some 2000 years ago and it’s promised to us in heaven. We can trust that one day we will be healed. but if for whatever reason God chooses not to heal me on this side of heaven, I know he will give me the power, patience, and long suffering to endure these trials with His help through his gift of the Holy Spirit. You can have this assurance too.