Trust The Process
Where do I start?
I come to you today in a place of complete humility. I have been struggling like crazy lately with trust and patience in my walk with Christ. I’m hoping that by coming to you today with this topic I can help someone struggling in the same situation. If this is you, you’re not alone, let’s build each other up! Trust the Process!
Let me start from the beginning.
About 3 months ago, God shut a major door in my life – a relationship. I was devastated but it was going to happen eventually. The breakup itself is for another day, Today I want to talk to you about what followed as a result of the breakup – and I’m mighty glad it did.
I rededicated my life to Christ.
I’ve been a Christian my whole life and I was baptized at the age of 7 or 8, but up until a few months ago, I had no idea what it truly meant to be a Christian.
I did a blog post on this last week if you’re interested in knowing what it means to be a Christian.
Before the breakup, I was stuck in such a weird season of my life. None of the things that I used to enjoy made me happy. I just felt so down and so off. Within a couple weeks of rededicating my life to Christ, God gave me my calling/purpose. One of which was to start this blog – praise the Lord right?
If you’re interested in learning how to discover your God-given calling/purpose, check out this post here where I go through the process in greater detail.
I’m not going to lie, I was terrified. But after a week of praying for confirmation, and receiving it, I obeyed. Soon thereafter, the Lord began to reveal more things to me about my calling/purpose and I was overjoyed. Turns out, running this blog is so much fun! Not only did God give me my calling/purpose, he gave me my joy back, something I had not experienced in years!
What I didn’t realize were the trials and tribulations that would follow.
When you dedicate your like to Christ, you are submitting to his will. This means that when I made this decision, I vowed to leave the devil and his schemes behind and to follow the standards put in place for Christians. As you can imagine, the devil was not having it; Afterall, his goal in life is to steal, kill and destroy. Because I choose to take up my cross daily to follow the Lord, the devil will try to stop me any way he can. The same goes for you.
Although I’ve only been walking in my calling/purpose for about 3 months, the devil has been working his magic since day one. He tried to throw me right back into the depth of a past eating disorder and almost succeeded. That along with many many other speedbumps in my walk with Christ really took its toll on me – and still continues to do so. It has become harder and harder to wake up every morning with the “let your will be done Lord” attitude, and I began to question God.
For example, the calling/purpose that God has given me doesn’t require a college degree. For those of you who aren’t familiar with my situation, I am currently a Junior in college and it has been a giant roadblock for me these past few months. Because of some unfortunate circumstances, I am unable to take out additional loans to cover the remainder of my tuition. So I am currently going to school full time while working part-time time to pay the remainder out of pocket; That along with blogging part-time has kept my hands crazy full. I’m sure you can imagine just how frustrated I am because it makes perfect sense for me to just drop out & continue to walk in my God-given calling – well, to me at least.
That’s when I cried out before the Lord, “Why am I here, what’s the point, I’m just wasting time and money, I’m working so hard for so little” and he replied “You’re where you’re supposed to be” Woah. What? he said it again “You’re where you’re supposed to be”. I didn’t understand it at first, but now I do.
God puts us in places or situations for the betterment of something or someone else.
God has me here because there is someone here that needs his hope, encouragement, and everlasting love. Someone that only I can influence and because of my personality, I am the perfect person to show them these things. If I were to drop out, that person wouldn’t have someone like me to show them hope, love, and encouragement. Who knows, maybe I’m meant to save a life. Wow. Think about it. Are you in a situation that makes absolutely no sense to you? Do you feel trapped or stuck? It’s so easy to see things from our human perspective, but as we are looking at today and tomorrow, God is looking at this month and next year. He positions us where he needs us to be to help somebody else. You’re where you’re supposed to be. Come before the Lord and ask him why you are where you are and be real with him. Then take a few minutes and be completely still, have no distractions, and wait for the Lord to speak to you – he absolutely will. When he does, believe it with all of your heart.
If you’re struggling to hear God’s voice, stay tuned, I have a blog post planed for that specific topic. Until then, check out this awesome YouTube video by Anna Willemstein. Check it out HERE
I want to share one of my favorite Bible verses with you, you may know it. It’s Jeremiah 29:11.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
At first glance, Jeremiah 29:11 is an uplifting & encouraging verse. And it absolutely is, but not in the way you may think. In order to completely understand Jeremiah 29:11, we must first put this verse into context.
During this time, the Israelites were enslaved and living through horrible things day in and day out. They were crying out, wondering why on earth God would allow them to go through such a hard time. This verse was the response they were given, except, they weren’t delivered from slavery for another 70 years! Can you imagine the amount of trust and patience that must have taken?
What I’m trying to get at here is that God knows exactly what he is doing and he will ALWAYS have our best interest at heart. We have to stay strong, trust in his timing, and be patient. We are at war, and we have to continue to fight the good fight. The Lord sees us in our time of need and he will reward us with more than we’ve ever imagined based on our faithfulness to his calling.
I want to leave you with this special verse:
“Don’t mistake God’s patience for His absence. His timing is perfect, and His presence is constant. He’s always with you.” ~ Deuteronomy 31:6
Keep your head up, the road is hard but we will persevere! Trust The Process!